The Sky and Me are crying together
Every time I close my eyes
I see what I don’t want to
my mind recalls me of something which I shouldn’t have seen
You always felt like me in some ways
and in many ways, someone I would like to be
I remember how badly I wanted you to reply to the comments I left on your posts
You were always too kind with people
even when they were unknown
I still remember the list of dreams you had
the way you admired stars in the sky
those workout sessions which pushed me harder
the knowledge you shared
the hunger to learn, learn & learn
I could feel it.
I never mentioned you as my favourite actor
because you were more than that
I could see myself in you
you made me believe that
an outsider, an introvert, a sensitive person
can live his dreams to the fullest
and keep adding more & more
every single night
You shouldn’t have done what you did
I know you were already fighting in your own head
and would’ve come back with a smile
inspiring me & so many others
but I don’t know
I don’t know what to say but I can’t help writing this down
Were you too curious about the afterlife?
Was it the void of your mother’s absence ?
“Can you code?”
That’s what I asked you back in 2018
You just liked my comment but didn’t answer me
Will you reply now with
“Yes, I can” ?
I always looked up to you
and I’ll keep doing that
because I know that’s where you are
at your favourite place
with the stars
The sky and me are crying together
(Dedicated to Sushant Singh Rajput)
Sushant Singh Rajput died by suicide on 14th June 2020. It’s been 5 days and I’m still not over it. And I don’t think I’ll be any soon. I wrote this on the same night.
Screenshot from 2018 when Sushant liked my comment on Instagram
Rest In Peace Sushant.
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